Hey lovelies, hope you’re all keeping well?
I’m so not prepared for Christmas to be tomorrow.
Thankfully I bought presents in advance. So I’m not running round like a headless chicken spending money.
These past two weeks have been a total wash out for me. My immune system seems to have packed up and buggered off on its jollies. So far this year, I’ve been hit by bug after bug and I just can’t seem to shake them.
I made the decision to not have my flu jab this year. A decision which honestly, I’m regretting. I didn’t think it had helped too much. But genuinely, I think it helped more than I gave it credit for.
Trying to maintain good all round health. Whilst being burdened with chronic health issues ,is a tough one. I never feel that I’ve had enough sleep. Or gotten enough vitamins or properly balanced my ratios. Instead, I as a general rule feel lacklustre.
Most people view good health as something you aspire to when it starts failing. For someone with chronic health problems, maintaining your self-health-care needs to be an all the time task.
Eating right, sleeping right, resting and taking time out. Are all vital to keeping well. But actually doing all that, is hard.
I was recommended to take a two hourly rests a day, to try manage my fatigue. But damn, really? Two hours? Of doing nothing? That just seems like a waste of time. But, as my doctor explained. Batteries require charging. Ideally before they hit that critical 1%.
I know that self care, is something I talk about a lot. Because it’s genuinely something I feel passionate about. I want people to value themselves more. So that they put their needs and requirements at the forefront.
But I want you guys to know, the person with the best advice, is usually the worst at taking it. This is me being transparent. Because it’s really easy to sit here on the Internet. Pretending like I’ve got my shit together. Eating only fresh organic fruit and getting pedicures every 3.5 days.
But that’s not the truth. Some days self care for me is just a hot bath, ten minutes to do something I love or picking up prepared vegetables. Choosing an early night over cleaning house. All of that is self care too.
Whatever it is that makes life nicer, makes health easier or makes a bad day a little better. That’s self care.
There used to be a big part of me that valued self sabotage. I pressed that self destruct button on a regular basis. I’ve paid, both physically and mentally for those choices. Until I realised the only person I was hurting, was myself. Which in turn hurt all the people close to me. Which in actual fact was the exact opposite of what I was trying to achieve originally.
So one of my top priorities for 2017, is to get serious on self care. I want to schedule time for myself, time to write, time to be creative. Putting focus on my wellbeing, will hopefully balance out everything else.
It’s just frustrating sometimes. But I know that I’m not alone in my feelings. One amazing thing that’s come out of all this, is the love and kind wishes from my online family.
So I know this has been a random and probably quite boring post. But I wanted to keep you guys in the loop. Although I have to be honest and say that I intended to gloss over my absence. Until Becca pointed out that being authentic about my struggles, was vital to being the blogger I aspire to be.
Taking time out from everything has been much needed. I’ve definitely got some ideas, on how I need to plan going forwards. With chronic health conditions there’s no assurances if and when, you’re going to have a good day or a bad week. You just take it in your stride and hope for the best,
So with that said. I’m signing off for the holidays. I want to wish you all a happy Christmas. I hope it’s everything you want and more.
Show the kindness you offer to others, to yourself this festive season.
I will be back between Christmas and New Year. With the top 5 things 2016 has taught me. That should be an interesting write – it’s been a crazy year.
If there is anything you would like me to discuss debate or review. You can get in touch with me using the contact form found here.
Until next time,